11 FEB 2010

today went to car test
parking all tat pass easily :)
but...i fail my jalanraya...
i'm really sad...u guys mayb will not noe it
wat ur feeling if there is 6 ppl n u r the only person tat fail?
9am till afternoon 3.30pm like tat...
i cant believe tat i fail the jalanraya
i dint nervous during tat time,n i did all the thing tat uncle teach me,but i still fail :(
i drive back to the starting point n the JBJ with very DARK FACE told me:sry ya,kamu tak pass
so?my tear almost fall out at tat moment!i did my best n uncle usually told me i will pass if i do like this?than why i fail?
but,i take my tear back,i dint let it fall out...
my frens is still there waiting for their turn,i really dun wanna to affect them T__T
feel really down,but
mayb ppl tat take the test once n pass cant feel this i think >< i'm SAD,but i dun noe wat can i do ady a weird feeling is surrounding me,i cant explain this feeling well went home mum ask pass or fail n i get scold? i ady do all the thing tat uncle teach me,is tat not enough? i fail ady still need kena marah?! DANM!OKAY!u wanna scold,u juz scold! suddenly feel like i dun care anymore... u guys noe?i feel like i'm really going to commit suicide!!! tat feeling to do stupid thing is growing bigernbiger in my heart!! when having my bath in the evening,i dun noe is it my tear tat drop down or it is the water,i dun noe anymore,n i dun care bout the thing tat happen around me as well... although uncle told me tat it is not my fault,juz dun think too much n do again next time,but... i'm feeling really BAD,who will want to be leave behind?all my fren pass ady n i'm the only one tat fail... told daddy i wanna take holiday today,but i rmr yst got ppl order buffet at 9pm so i told daddy i start work today at 8pm... hear songs for very long, than dun noe wat time i fall assleep ady... wake up than go work,but tat weird feeling is still stick to me >< shoulder feel really tired,mayb yst not sleep well also no appetite for the whole day...i eat before i go for car test... than till 11pm ady still dun feel like i wanna eat,but gastrik got some weird acting,so hav some food at 11.30pm like tat,juz eat some then feel really full,no appetite at all ><''
cant sleep.....now the time is 2.12am,i juz cant sleep n my heart is getting chaos...
TEAR,i dun c u for so long,but i think u r close to me today...

Angle View-Angle from the ppl tat r not single

LONG TIME AGO,a fren hav a conversation like this with me
fren:u noe why ppl always need a life partner n dun like being single?
me:dun noe~but many ppl say 单身自由，快乐ar
fren:HA~tats funny,if u feel sad,who will u find?
me:some close fren?or my siblings?:)
fren:tat will not last forever
me:huh?why?
fren:u c...everyone will have their life partner,n tats the one tat they love most!
if u hav someone tat u love n tat person love u too,he/she will always be at ur side...happy with u,cheer u when u sad or juz sad with u...tat person is the medicine to cure ur heart no matter wat,tat person is the only one tat will listen to ur problem n be at ur side forever...
i dint notice n dun agree with him at tat time,
but now,i agree
IF U R SINGLE,U WILL HAVE NO ONE WHEN U REALLY NEED SOMEONE,CAZ ALL UR FREN HAVE THEIR SOMEONE TOO

8 FEB 2010

alram ring at 8am...
open eyes n c the phone~2 new message~
c the 1st one~from agent uncle say he is busy today so today training cancel~
than fall back to my bed n continue sleep...==Zzzzz
sleep till 12pm =.=\\
than do something than go work lor~
this few day feel really tired~
afternoon went i hav my rest time,the sky rain n the thunder was keep striking~scary~
so i dint online n find ppl to sms lo~
night the customer number still okay lo~but i'm really tired~Haiz~
surf the net at night~
c something on JianWen blog...
Erm...i dun noe wat to say...but just...rmr to be happy,always smile ya!
there something call 失败乃成功之母 ,right?
but after looking at her post,i'm a bit scare too~
i'm taking the car test this thursday n till today only train jalan raya 2 times?!
n uncle never let go of the stering,he is controling for me =.=\\
Hope i did past the test this thursday ><''

7 FEB 2010

midnight go to the store~
the store make a promotion open 36 hour~
1st time go shopping at midnight~~
go there arond 3am~
me,liyan n dad~
promotion make the stuff become very cheap during the time~
shandy n cola only RM24?i dun rmr clearly~
but we line up so long only success to buy~
caz really too many ppl ady~n they dint play by the rule ><'' they r stink~ BADBADBAD!! from 3.15am line up till 4.55am only buy finish?LOL? so tired ady tat time~ before going we plan to c shirt,so we went to c shirt after tat~ but really too tired ady so no wat mood to c ady ><
went going home i fall asleep in car~LOL
get all the stuff into shop than went to bed~tat time is 6.30am or 7am ady?LOLXXX
wake up by sis at 3pm?i'm late for work~
Zzz~lucky dint get scold~but i'm still so tired~
caz the day before i only sleep 4 hour than wake up by phone(agent uncle call me for car training)
n today so many customer!!!
headache again~painpain~
n so tired...
got take few snap in the store~can c lots of ppl~
upload another time~now tired go sleep ady~Zzzzz...